Transformed Liner Notes

Onward

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Jimi Inc.- transatlantic guitars; Rick Steff- hammond organ

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN
Except for
Jimi Inc. – transatlantic guitars
Recorded by Paul Betts at The Shop, London UK

Lyrics:

Call off your dogs
And sheath your sword
I’m gonna move
Onward
I was thinking you were someone
That I could talk to
But it turned out I was wrong
And now, what can I do?
Prick up your ears
And be forewarned
I’m gonna sing
I will not mourn
You were thinking I was someone
That you could fuck with
But it turned out you were wrong
Hey – that’s okay – I forgive youI’ll not suffer gladly
No, I’ll not suffer one bit
I have seized the crown
And now I cannot part with it
Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

Amplifying Embarrassment

Linda – vocals, rhythm guitar; John McClure – electric bass; Kurt Ruleman – drums and percussion; Jim Duckworth – electric guitar; Jim Spake – clarinet and saxophone; Jimi Inc.- Memphis backing vocals

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Lyrics:

I confess to you, and
You suggest I do this
Or that – I do just what I
Want to doAnd there is nothing left to say
I love you – get out of my way
You could not help yourself, I know
And I will gladly let it goI suppose I could let
It go, I would honor
Error – I could let thinking
Go, I wouldAnd there is nothing left to do
I love you and you love me, too
And maybe we can both prevail
And maybe then, we can exhaleNow let it all become unloosed
Now take my neck out of this noose
And now, allowing an easement,
Amplifying embarrassment
Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

Brian Eno’s Oblique Strategies helped write this song.

Jagged Trajectory

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Rick Steff- keyboards and light theremin; Doug Easley- buzzy fuzzy guitar; Matthew Christen- banjo; Jimi Inc.- Memphis backing vocals

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Except for Matthew Christen- banjo

Recorded by Linda Heck at Jump-off Mountain Cabin, Sewanee TN

Lyrics:

It’s a jagged trajectory
I keep telling myself
Remember to breath
I keep telling myself
Everything will be revealed
I keep telling you
Listen to the way you feel
I keep telling you
Tear it all up
Knock it all down
Try to be cool
Joy comes unbound
To begin, you just must start
Open your mind
Unclench your heart
Let it all go
Let it all out
And let me in
It’s about time
Explode the myths
Ignore the hype
This palindrome that’s
Known as life
Is underway
Just step aside
The pain, the tears
The grief, the pride-
Let it all go
Let it all out
And let me in
Isn’t it time?
Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

A Thousand Mistakes

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar, backing vocals; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Jim Spake- saxophone; Jim Duckworth- electric guitar; Jimi Inc.- Memphis guitar, Memphis backing vocals

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Lyrics:

I made a thousand mistakesI’m not gonna lie

But what would it take
For me to testify?
What I said was the truth
Except the part that was lies
We ran out of vermouth
And it all took a dive

Soul’s unraveling
Mind is following
Heart is sinking like stone
Eyes are glistening
Feet are blistering
Will I never be home?

Which was my biggest mistake?
Can it be qualified?
I drove into the lake-
Now you can’t see me cry

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

The Jims!

How About You?

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar, backing vocals; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Jimi Inc.- transatlantic guitar; Jonathan Kirkscey- cello

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Except for Jim Inc.-transatlantic guitar
Recorded by Paul Betts at The Shop, London UK

Lyrics:

I tried to help you in swimming upstream
I tried to hold you whenever you screamed
Where is the person that you used to know?
Where in the hell did she go?
Where is the person that you used to be?
And what’s that got to do with me?
Well, it’s making me crazy
Trying to comprehend
It’s bringing me down
All over againI tried to blame you for holding me back
I tried to blame you for all that I lack
Where is the person that you thought I was?
All in the name of love

It’s making me question
All I thought I knew
It’s bringing me down
And how about you?

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

Love and Other Difficulties

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar; John McClure- bass; Kurt Ruleman- percussion; Jim Spake- saxophone; Jim Duckworth- electric guitar; Jimi Inc.- Memphis backing vocals

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Lyrics

Time to think
Of love and other difficulties
Pencil it in
Circle the date in red inkPaperclips
Duct tape and promises
Have repaired this heart
I’m prepared to unseal my lips
And you don’t need to understand me
Please just stand
By my side

Worn out map
Which charts uncertain course
It’s riddled with holes
The secrets start coming unwrapped

Veil aside
Showing soft underbelly
There’s no protection
From all that’s lurking inside

And I don’t need to understand it
I just need to
Stand aside

And you don’t need to understand me
Please just be
By my side

Song and Arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

Tattooed Wedding Ring

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar; John McClure- acoustic bass, nylon-string guitar; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Jonathan Kirkscey- cello; Jimi Inc.- Memphis backing vocals

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Lyrics

I had tattooed this wedding ring
Filigreed blue on my fourth finger
Flaming wild roses in the spring
You’re like a virus that has lingered
And I don’t know if it’s me or it is you
And I don’t know what the hell I’m supposed to do
And I don’t know what I ever thought I knew
‘cause I don’t know

A heavy blanket weighs us down
And snow in drifts covers our windows
And lying dormant underground
Both of our souls are held in escrow

And I don’t know if I’m right or I am wrong
And I don’t know why the hell I wrote this song
And I don’t know if I ever will belong
I don’t know

Straight-line winds are howling through my soul
And I can’t say that I ever had control
And I don’t know if I ever will be whole
I don’t know

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

At Your Door

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar, dulcimer; John McClure- bowed acoustic bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Greg Easterly- violin; Jonathan Kirkscey- cello; Mark Harrison- subliminal guitar

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Except for Greg Easterly- violin and Mark Harrison- guitar

Recorded by Mark Harrison at Mayfair Road Studio, Nashville TN

Lyrics:

I am writing you this note
Ooh, I am writing
Full of all my broken hopes
Ooh, I am writing
And the words are slow to come
Ooh, I am writing
And my hand is growing numb
Ooh, I am writing
I’m writing on the wall
In letters 3 feet tall
‘Cause you are- yes, you are
Near-sightedI am singing you this song
Ooh, I am singing
‘Cause the night has grown so long
Ooh, I am singing
Sleep will never know my name
Ooh, I am singing
I am resting all the same
Ooh, I am singing

I’m singing in your ear
But you don’t seem to hear
That you are- yes, you are
Like my home

I’m breathing down your neck
I am a nervous wreck
‘Cause I am- yes, I am
At your door

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

Beyond

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar, high-strung guitar, backing vocals; John McClure- bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Doug Easley- pedal steel, synth-tar; Jonathan Kirkscey- cello

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN
Lyrics

I always thought that we would meet
And I would shake your hand
You didn’t know me,
but I felt like you would understand
Unspoken fantasy of you and me
In conversation
Maybe we’ll meet in the beyond
I’ll never forget the way your eyes held mine
Inside your song
I’d never heard it,
But I felt like I could sing along

I won’t ask why, because I know it is
A pointless question
We’ll never meet in the beyond

Sometimes, I wish it didn’t feel like this
To be alive
But I’ve got your music on
I feel like I could drive and drive

Whether you believed your soul was real
Or, that it is all bullshit
It’s transmigrated into song

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

My friend Belinda told me that Kristen Hersh had written in her blog that she didn’t want to live in a world without Vic Chesnutt, and I started thinking about the last time I’d seen him perform, in Nashville.  I had to look up Kristen Hersh. I used to date a guy who liked Throwing Muses.

Anyway, this is for Kristen Hersh.

Rescue

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Jim Spake- clarinet, saxophone; Rick Steff- keyboards; Jimi Inc.- Memphis backing vocals

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Lyrics:

Please won’t you rescue me
I am alone at sea
It’s almost dark
I’m surrounded by sharks, baby
Please won’t you rescue me
You don’t know where I’ve been
You call yourself my friend
I’m lashed to a tree
The wind’s pummeling me, baby
You don’t know where I’ve been
I have been all over this mountain
I’ve poked through its caves
And understory
And I still haven’t found you
I guess maybe lost
Is where you want to be

Please let me up for air
I’ll stay nearby, I swear
I won’t swim away
I am here for today, baby
Please let me up for air

I have been all over this ocean
I’ve swum to its depths
On this odyssey
And I still have no notion
I guess maybe lost
Is where you want to be

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

Underwear

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Rick Steff- my mother’s accordion; Matthew Christen- banjo; Adam Woodard- backing vocals

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Except for
Matthew Christen- banjo
Recorded by Linda Heck at Jump-off Mountain Cabin, Sewanee, TN

Lyrics:

Having shown my hand
Having bared my soul
I’ve come to understand
That I am vulnerable
I’m in the middle of a field
Clothed in moonlight only
I am trying to unpeel
The parts from the whole
Having burned my barn
Having swept my room
If I stand just right
I can see the moon

I’m in the middle of a crowd
Dumbstruck and looking foolish
I am trying to allow
The light to shine through

You cannot destroy me
‘Cause I am already there
Corner 5th and Main Street
And I’m in my underwear
You cannot get to me now
I do not even care
It’s like I’m on TV
And I’m in my underwear

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

Alabama

Linda- vocals, two-hundred-dollar Takamine, backing vocals, pedal steel; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Jim Spake- saxophone; Jimi Inc.- London guitars, Memphis backing vocals

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Except for Jimi Inc.- London guitars

Recorded by Paul Betts at The Shop, London UK
Lyrics

My road took me
Somewhere deep in Alabama
I’ve got my suitcase and my camera
I’m on my way home to you
My mind is blank
My eyes are open
My heart is broken
But it still beats true
A shifting flock of birds
Smudges the sky
It grabs me by my soul
And shakes me out to dry

Hope courses through
My veins and down into my fingers
That’s where the feel of you still lingers
And I know what to do

My thoughts run wild
Like horses I have lost control of
They run a ring around the hole of
Space I carved out for you

I’ve got my hands on the wheel
As fields blur by
Open up this road
And let me fly

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

I pulled over on a lonely north Alabama highway and started writing this after I saw the huge flock of birds wafting like a giant amoeba across the sky.

All Things Fall Away

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar, backing vocals; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Jim Spake- saxophone; Jimi Inc.- London guitars and throat-singing, Memphis backing vocals; Matthew Christen- banjo

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Except for
Matthew Christen- banjo

Recorded by Linda Heck at Jump-off Mountain Cabin, Sewanee TN

Lyrics

Will the grass ever grow back
Over the tire tracks in the lawn?
Will your new life keep you warm
Like some sweater you put on?
It is all the same to me
I am merely standing by
But that doesn’t stop the flow
Of these tears that I must cry
All things fall away
All things fall away
All the blank spots on the wall
Where your pictures used to be
All the boxes in the hall
Filled with your jettisoned debris
How I wish this world would end
And the pain begin to fade
The evening breeze is sifting through
Everything that falls away

All things fall away
All things fall away

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

Like some crazy Django-infected Turkish shepherd, Matthew dispensed with fretting and played by detuning the strings.

© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

Transformed

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar, backing vocals, pedal steel; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Sean T. Faust- didgeridoo; Jim Spake- saxophone; Greg Easterly- violin; Jimi Inc.- Memphis backing vocals, throat-singing, pedal steel

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN
Except for Greg Easterly- violin
Recorded by Mark Harrison at Mayfair Road Studio, Nashville TN

 

I was thinking of my friends
And how they’re missing you today
I keep looking for the words
But man, there’s nothing I can say
That would take your pain away
 

I was thinking of the space
That’s in between the yes and no
I keep feeling for the edge
‘Cause man, there’s nowhere else to go
Nothing is all I’ll ever know
 

I’ve been thinking of beyond
And you’ve been gilding my pale streams
Flowing through my deep intervals
And man, that’s immortality
Heavenly alchemy
Transformed, you are a part of me
 

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck

© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

 
 
This song started coming to me in Memphis during the days following Jim Dickinson’s death… remembering he’s not gone, that none of us is ever gone as long as others of us remember, that “the Past is never dead.  It’s not even past.”  I spent the 4 and a half hour drive back to Sewanee thinking of all who are neither dead nor gone, inspiring and supporting me.  I was a little surprised when Shakespeare showed up, but it’s a big tent of a song.  Doug did a beautiful job shining up the kitchen sink of it. 

Woo Hoo Hoo Yeah

Linda- vocals, rhythm guitar, backing vocals; John McClure- electric bass; Kurt Ruleman- drums; Jim Spake- (clarinet), saxophone; Jim Duckworth- electric guitar; Jimi Inc.- Memphis backing vocals

Recorded by Doug Easley at Easley-McCain, Memphis TN

Lyrics:

I stepped out of my body
I stepped into the light
I stepped out of my secret
I felt my soul ignite
Woo hoo hoo yeah
I hung inside that moment
Slung in a cushioned net
And if there’s something better
I have not found it yet

Woo hoo hoo yeah

My bags are all exploded
And I am the oversoul
Nameless, I remain broken
But my parts exceed the whole

Woo hoo hoo yeah

Song and arrangement by Linda Heck
© Linda Heck, Jagged Trajectory, BMI

File under “Living to Serve”: Jim Duckworth came in for overdubs and I asked if I could do anything. He said I should just keep dancing around in the control room.